I need help, I'm afraid to change my haircolor

Well, i didn't have the nerve to go jett black, but i did do a soft, light natural dirty/nuetral blond. Maybe i can work my way up to the black so it isn't such a shock.

If it were me in that situation, I'd go off in a totally different direction, like fucshia or something, just to defy both my own and others' expectations. . . but that's just me. . .
Really, I guess if you're that obsessed over your hair, you'll have to look inside yourself and try to find out the reasons why. Unfortunately, I can't really help you beyond that-- I still have a lot of problems with dreaming weird situations of me wearing glasses :-P .

No, my hair isn't over proccessed or anything, and this will take awhile to explain

Ok, some of you may know that after I had the run in with blue-green hair, I stripped it and put in a champagne blond color. I liked it and everyone says it looks great on me. This happened some months ago, and I've been useing high-lift dye to keep up the color. The thing is, guys who never gave me the time of day were suddenly asking for my number and whatnot, and i admit I do like the attention. Blondes have more fun, no? this was all well and good until recently. It has started to bother me that people find me most attractive in a "look" that is the total opposit of what I was born with. I naturally have very dark hair, and I keep thinking that not only would I possibly regret going darker, but I will get a "why did he DO that to himself!?" response. But, I have also considered the possibility that it could look very sexy and, depending on the particular brunnette shade, warm up my complexion or make it look like milky porcelin. Basically, I'm worried that it will make me or break me. I know that changing your hair color shouldent be something one utterly FIXATES on, but i feel like I'm afraid to be true to myself. I also have premature gray hairs and I'm afraid growing those back out will result in some kind of rejection. For some reason I'm terrified of letting my gray hairs show or going to a dark color. Earlier today, I had a half inch of roots showing. I panicked and practically dove out of the car. I went to Sally beuaty supply and got the usual high-lift golden blonde. The whole time I was mixing it up and letting it set on my hair, I had a scared, angry, sinking feeling. When I was done all i could think was that I was so close to getting over it, but the fear had to hit me RIGHT then, right there. i can't figure out why this is such a big deal to me, but every dream i have had lately, i had dark hair in all of them and in each dream, I was always fighting something. I'm usually not like this about anything, I usually do whatever I want and i'm freaking out over some****ing hair