i could quite possibly cry.

so. it starts about...eh. 4/5 ish months ago when my mother and i go to rite-aid and were looking at hair dye. (i'm a natural blonde btw) i find this really awesome aurburnish color. we buy it, go home, dye my hair, i love it. well about a month ago i decide that i hate it. we go and buy some golden blonde color, dye it, and it fades a bit. not good enough. two weeks ago we dye it a little lighter blonde and it seemed like i was back to my natural, with a couple red tones. i can live with a couple red tones. but sadly it didn't stick and i'm now back to the faded red color.

i KNOW that it's possible to get red to blonde. it's not like i'm a light blonde, or even a medium blonde. i'm a dark ashy blonde, i could probably pass for a light brunette. my mom will not take me to a hair salon as it will cost a fortune. so. how in the heck can i get this light aburn color to a dark blonde? i know that it's not going to be an overnight thing or anything, it'll have to be a process. but where do i start?