help!! goldwell hair color...

hello. i am attempting to find a decent hair color i can live with. my normal color is probably a dark ash blonde, which i hate! i had cancer 10 years ago & chemo took my hair... it came back but remains short as i don't have the patience to grow it out & it is much easier to care for in the mornings... anyway, i went through a period of bleaching/toning my hair to a white blond as i do not really like yellow or orange tones in blondes.... i prefer the whiter tones... i have been trying to find good hair color that don't test on animals. i tired paul mitchell hi lift ash but didn't care for it. it was rough on my hair & it held so much yellow/orange tones.... i went through a period of coloring my hair darker but it just doesn't look right with my complexion.... i was looking at goldwell swatches compaing colors i can buy off ebay. i was leaning toward 11v for the violet as i know it helps to fight yellow/orange tones, but then i also thought maybe 10p? there was a color listed of which i couldn't find a swatch-9NGP very light blonde pear... it sounded interesting.... if anyone knows this color line, any help would be helpful! also, should i just use the oxycur platin lightening granules to bleach it out & then tone with a demi-permanent?? i want the best results with the least amount of damage.... altho i love the color light blondes always looks dull... anyway, any help would be very, very appreciated!!!!